I’m just sharing a link today, given to me by a dear friend. It’s a quiz for anyone who is the adult child of narcissistic parents.
It’s not one of those “what book are you?” quizzes. It’s actually a profound quiz for those of us who hail from survived those parents.
Please take it and share it. Together, we can get through this.
As for me, I’m going to try to stay positive these days while also doing my best to see things as they are, cut myself some slack, allow truths to emerge and stop glossing over defecate.
I am grateful for many peoples’ support and kindnesses to me both privately and on the comments from my most recent posts.
I’m richer for it and I’m going to take care of myself because while there’s nothing I can do about the past, I don’t have to pretend it never happened or allow the callous and STUPID romantics in my life who saw my mother in a way that suited them and their needs to shame me into seeing things their way because my truth looks too familiar for them.
Fuck them.
I realize I’ve felt silenced and as though my voice didn’t matter and the only crap I could come up with was two massive posts beating the hell out of myself while also editing or quasi-justifying my mother’s atrocious parenting. Let me be clear: you have no idea.
Their bullshit perspectives have fueled my continued recovery and have empowered me in the best possible way… I’m not on fire with vengeance, but I am on fire and it feels good to get some of that back.
So, here’s the link. Take the quiz and take care of yourself.
https://ugeorgia.qualtrics.com/jfe/form/SV_bpUcPJ3CkaLjOPb
Here’s what I drew last night, I’m really enjoying the doodling now. (Although this is more than a doodle… it took me about an hour to get it “right” and although it needn’t be perfect, I would like it to happen more fluidly for me). It was like math… I almost died trying to figure it out. I got all squirmy and sweaty and angsty.
sorry for the cropping. 🙂 NO I’M NOT!
Here’s another link about narcissism and how it affects kids: http://www.alanrappoport.com/pdf/Co-Narcissism%20Article.pdf
Thank you.
Grass Oil by Molly Field 
I love this drawing and the mandala from the 27th , you go girl, you can draw some cool stuff…maybe even illustrate a children’s book (I don’t know why I said that, but is sounded good, I see you illustrating a children’s book!….love it!
T
It’s nice to draw. Totally different head space. I’ve been afraid to do it because it was Mom’s thing, but I REEEEEALLLLY have to shut down that narrative. I know this. I am pushing myself, in a good way. My friend says “a Mandala a day keeps the stress away…”
I heart you. Maybe I need to start doodling again.
And yeah, I totally took that quiz.
Doodling is helping me access a mirthful place. It’s not a heavy place and it’s got lots of swirls in there. The good kind of swirls. That you can put butterflies on. I heart you too.